Okay so this wrap has me pissed off. I love the pattern and the yarn !even though it’s been full of drama, but sometimes a project is just possessed. I’ve knit and unknit so many rows, simple errors from not being focused, that I’m just fucking over it. If I don’t complete it in full tonight I’m binding it off and calling it complete anyway. Heading to San Fran tomorrow for the holiday and then to Ashland for the parade and tree lighting. Love the holiday lights. Hoping for snow! I’ve two hats to bring with me that I’d like to finish on this trip. Heading into the new year with fresh knitting is always a goal. Wiser every year. Oh, started a 30 day juice fast. Sounds crazy right, with the holidays looming?! My kind of crazy:)Share
This project went from awesome to wtf when I realized I had two yarns of different weight in the same dye lot. I’ve removed a few wip knits from my que. When knitting starts to feel like a chore it’s time to let some shit go. Currently in the works is this wrap, a double knit hat, a 3×1 rib hat with a simple stripe, a cowl neck and my rainbow wrap. In deep, as in a box, I’ve 2 blankets that I may or may not ever finish. I’m excited to see where my knitting takes me from here. I’ve also registered to get my master knitters certificate. I want to travel and teach.Share
Tap it if it doesn’t play:)Share
Here she goes again! Starting Feb 13 I’ll start preparing for a 30 day juice fast. I’ve heard it all before, “You won’t get enough protein!”, “You’re starving yourself!” Do some research and decide for yourself. What I believe is what matters to me. I’m going to do a bookend approach. Three days raw vegan, 2 days smoothies, 30 days juice, 2 days smoothies, 3 days raw vegan. From there I may continue raw vegan or start incorporating raw/cooked vegan. Ya ya, I still wear leather etc but I’ve decided meat is not healthy for my diet. Know what else doesn’t work for me? Gluten! Man I love my bread and pasta but the gluten makes my skin turn into one big rash. Combine that with the itchy feeling I get from MS and it’s enough to drive me crazy. Dairy also is a no go. Hard to believe I survived working on a dairy farm. I’m sure over the next few days I’ll be saying goodbye to some food groups by eating them, lol. I’m sure I’ll be drinking too much. It sounds unhealthy but it puts me in a good mental place when I wake up feeling like shit. Pretty motivating. I’ll be sharing my recipes, how I’m feeling and probably the color of my poop. Okay maybe not my poop but I’ll try to keep it interesting. Growing my hair out too. Fuck you cancer. I’m trying to think of a good knitting project to start while I’m doing it. Maybe I should pick back up my denim quilt project. I follow a few people that are super motivating and I’ll be adding links above as well as removing some that feel obsolete to me now. Cleaning house and keeping it simple. So cheers it’s Friday and I’ll be seeing you Monday.
Fall is in the air. I’ve been doing some deep cleaning and organizing, both mentally and physically. I feel behind and ahead at the same time. Sticking out my time working at the farm through winter and going back to school.Share
Oh boy, here I go. My constant struggle with Emotional self sufficiency. If we are emotionally self reliant why do we need anybody else? This is a tuff one for me. I sift through different blogs I follow looking for answers, not to mention my well paid psychologist! Here’s a good one from Zen Habits.
I’m the first to admit that for many years, I was a bit emotionally needy.
Not in a crazy, desperate way, but in the way that many of us are. I wanted someone else to make me happy, blamed others for my unhappiness, sought to fulfill my emotional needs through others.
This caused all kinds of problems I didn’t even realize were there: I’d have relationship problems because if the other person wasn’t meeting my needs, I’d resent it. I’d be unhappy lots of the time, because I thought happiness was outside of me, and therefore it was unreliable and elusive. I was helpless, because if other people are supposed to make me happy and fulfill my needs, then what could I do if they didn’t? What could I do if they hurt me instead?
Only in the last few years have I been becoming more emotionally self-reliant. It’s made my relationships better, and has greatly increased my happiness.
I can’t claim to be an expert on this topic, but I can share some things I’ve been learning. It’s a very, very useful process, as those who are already emotionally independent can attest to.
Are you emotionally dependent? Ask yourself these questions:
Are you looking for a romantic partner to make you happy?
If you have a partner, do you look to this person for love, for sex, for support, for reassurance, for validation?
Are you upset if your partner doesn’t react in a certain way, doesn’t meet a need?
When you’re alone, do you feel the need to fill the loneliness void with distraction? Are you always on your phone when you’re alone?
Do you complain a lot about other people? Get mad because of things they do?
Is your relationship the center of your universe? What about your relationship with friends or your kids?
Do you get bothered if your partner does something that doesn’t include you, or cuts out something that you’ve been doing together?
Do you get jealous?
This list isn’t comprehensive, of course, but some of you can probably see yourselves in a couple of those questions (or more), if you’re completely honest.
And that doesn’t mean you’re a bad person. I still have some of these issues myself, though I’m getting better at them. Most people have a few of these issues, though many wouldn’t admit it, because they worry it would make them look bad. No one likes to look bad, or to think of themselves as bad. But having any of these issues doesn’t make you bad — it’s just who you are right now.
However, while this isn’t an issue of being a “bad person”, I think the skills of emotional self-reliance are useful ones to learn. They can transform your relationships and happiness.
How We Got This Way
Usually this way of thinking starts in childhood. We rely on our parents for our emotional needs — love, comfort, support, validation, etc. And we don’t often develop emotional self-reliance skills as kids, because parents (out of love for us) do their best to provide for all these needs.
And then we become adults, without having learned emotional self-reliance. And so we look for someone else to fill our emotional needs. We look for the perfect partner, and will probably go through a few breakups, because 1) we’re not emotionally independent, and so we do needy things that hurt a relationship, and 2) our partner is probably the same way.
If we’re ever hurt, we blame the other person for hurting us. If they aren’t there for us, we blame them. If something bad happens to us, we become victims, because you can’t move on with your life if someone has done something bad to you, right?
However, there is a solution.
We have to learn this: Happiness is not outside ourselves.
Becoming Emotionally Self-Reliant
We look for happiness from others, but this is an unreliable source of happiness. Other people will come and go, or they’ll be emotionally unavailable for their own personal reasons.
And here’s the thing: it’s not their job to fill our emotional needs. They are struggling trying to meet their own needs.
So instead of looking for happiness from someone else, we have to realize it’s not out there. It’s within us.
Happiness isn’t in the future, it’s not somewhere else. It’s available right inside us, right now, all the time.
How can we find this happiness? It takes some inner searching, but consider these suggestions:
Sit by yourself, without a device or distraction, for a few minutes. Look inside. Notice your thoughts as they come up. Get to know your mind. See how fascinating it is. This in itself is an endless source of entertainment and learning.
One of my sources of happiness is creating, coming up with ideas, producing something. I don’t need anyone to do those things, and they give me wonder at my own abilities.
I also love learning. It gives me happiness, helps me grow.
Curiosity is a boundless source of happiness for me.
Learn to fix your own problems. If you are bored, fix it. If you are lonely or hurt, comfort yourself. If you are jealous, don’t hope that someone will reassure you … reassure yourself.
Take responsibility. If you find yourself blaming others, tell yourself that the other person is never the problem. Of course, you can believe the other person is the problem, but then you are reliant on them for the solution. If you believe that they aren’t the problem, then you look inside yourself for the solution.
If you find yourself complaining, instead find a way to be grateful.
If you find yourself being needy, instead find a way to give.
If you find yourself wanting someone to help you, help yourself.
Create your own source of built-in happiness. Walk around as a whole, happy person, needing nothing.
Then come from this place of wholeness, of self-reliance and independence, and love others. Not because you want them to love you back, not because you want to be needed, but because loving them is an amazing thing to do.
By Leo Babauta
Let’s just take it nice and easy.
This was a well written pattern with many options for variation. Both with yarn weight, color and yardage. I chose Adriafil Kimera, a cotton yarn, purchased at my LYS Pinch Knitter. I used 2 balls and had only a shoestring worth left over. I also think this yarn would make fabulous dish cloths. I’d knit them on a 3 or 4 and have the stitches be small and tight. But that’s another post!
Pattern & yarn review Rondelay By Jennifer Dassau
& Malabrigo Mechita; color 866 Diana
purchased at Pinchknitter.
Love this pattern. Very well written and I even got over my fear of short row shaping. I avoid patterns that say “seamed” or “short row shaping”. My two least favorite things when it comes to knitting! Quick knit yet challenging enough to not put you to sleep.
Malabrigo yarn. Need I say anymore? I’ve knit with many different weights of this yarn and have never been disappointed. My only fyi about this yarn is if your knitting a large project, like a sweater, and using multiple skeins of yarn in the same dye lot, I would alternate every few rows so you don’t end up with pooling. You can actually plan pooling into a pattern but that’s a post for another day.
Pooling is a term for when colors group together in a visible and strong pattern.
If you wish to prevent pooling, randomness is key. You may wish to alternate two skeins every other row, so as to break up repeats. Please note: alternating exactly every other row is also a pattern, so pooling might still be noticeable. Try and keep your alternating more random.Share
Wow do I love this app! I have multiple knitting projects going at the same time. I don’t have a problem, I’m a normal knitter:) Tally pro lets me not only count the rows on each WIP but you can also make counters within counter by renaming them. For example I’m working on a mitten and I’ve put the thumb on stitch holders to work on the mitten portion. I know how many rows I had left off on on the thumb. Sunsequently I can finish the thumb and make a counter description that says how many rows I finished with. I can then used that as a guide for the second mitten. I have a habit of altering projects mid stream and then forgetting how many rows or when I decreased stitches and the like.
Working on a few WIP’s that I had set aside. Interesting that they are both the same color family, both are being knit double stranded and both are both shawls. One is knit in a triangular shape and the other is a rectangle. The triangle one I really don’t like personally but somebody might find it nice. The rectangle is more of a loosely knit pattern. A mix of hand dyed silk and a natural linen. The linen is stiff as I knit but will soften up after it’s been washed. Hoping to finish them both by weeks end. Set my current project aside after finding a mistake, missed stitch, and have lost the patience to fix it.Share
Lots of thought about that this week. What makes me smile? Working through the thoughts in my head so I can be the best me.Share
Picked the yarn for my double knit hat classes. Know I get to knit samples.Share